kali

almost

2005-08-26T20:27:00.000+08:00

i almost had the perfect day of my life a while ago...

i don't want to be mayabang or anything... pero to lay it down, im jealous. its just when one already knows who your crush is, then wouldn't that be a cue for him to at least give space? and not to mention healthy competition, but cmon! that's unhealthy...
i don't want to be a loser, pero i still haven't figured out why i acted like that...
confused... i now lay my head on my bed to rest.....

*kriz lost all hope - 9:10pm

eto na

2005-08-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

eto na.

simula ng ilabas ang isang-daang porsiyentong lakas.

CBE finals week

accounting

physics

psychology

sociology

english

math

ipakita mo!

lantaran na

2005-08-15T15:52:00.000+08:00

ok this is it.

i did alot of thinking last weekend, thinking of what should my lonely life be when i pursue to find my true self again through someone else. my mind is so jumbled with so many names and people that ive barely known for only 3 months. ako'y nilamon ng pag-ibig - ganyan talaga. and yes, i have crushes from my block c34. it's up to you to figure the 3 out... hehehe

wrong one

2005-08-14T09:41:00.000+08:00

im falling for the wrong one at the wrong time...

"london bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down..."

haha

2005-07-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

my fate seems like to smile at me often.

weird though that i forgot that i have a shared blog with mico jau. it's nearly been a month since i've written something in this blog. i've been busy for quite a long time. add some pep squad practice into it and i find little time to contemplate and rethink my life. i have little time for my family and friends, and it's a major problem.

im lonely. i can accept the fact that i have loads of friends, pero iba yung may kasama ka na alam mo na mahalaga sayo. i want to find someone who i can share my being me. people tend to look at me like a kid, but that's because i am happy. and there's nothing wrong with that.

anyway, i just focus on books and cheers. got my midterms standing and i not so happy about it. im up for DL and i end up with 2.5's. dad's gonna kill me if i don't do any better. pep's good, but my hands and my throat are getting worse. i need to lear n the "diaphragm technique" which gives you an extra boost in your voice without hurting your throat. i finally got a halftime! haha! tv appearance at last! although im exposed in greenarcher.net, i finally got myself in the screen. im proud of my accomplishment.

next, i have a crush. and these are the hints:
1. she's from my college
2. she's my blockmate
3. she's cute
4. she's kalog
5. she's simple (the very special asset i find dashing with someone)

well that's it. i hope that my life would go on as i paint more colors into other's lives. haha im sleepy.

2005-07-16T12:14:00.000+08:00

fight a
fight t
fight e
fight n
fight e
fight o

fight blue and white
the blue and white will go and fight

fight sis, boom bah
boom rah rah rah rah rah rah
boom rah rah rah rah rah rah
boom rah rah rah rah rah rah

fight a
fight t
fight e
fight n
fight e
fight o

go, go teneo!

batch 2k5

2005-06-26T17:35:00.000+08:00

after all that's been said and done
after all the shouts, the cheers
after all the pains and the sufferings...

it's official

pep squad batch 2oo5

thrilled to be part of it.

the day

2005-06-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

one more day to go.

saturday.
alumni welcoming.

hell day.

pambansang shoulder-to-cry-on

2005-06-18T19:16:00.000+08:00

ako ang pambansang shoulder-to-cry-on.

for the past few weeks, i've been the one who hears all the things that aren't supposed to be heard. honestly, these secrets are too heavy to carry. as i grow older and as more people became my friends, the more secrets i hear. good ones and bad ones. i am the great mediator, where everything and everyone is good. the fence-sitter and the neutral. i take in all the stuff and keep them from every breathing soul. trust is the name of the game. but when everything seems bad, they all cry on me. ako ang pambansang shoulder-to-cry-on. i offer my little bony shoulder unto those who deserve better than what they received. i have dedicated half of my life comforting those who need comfort. i try to cheer up those who need to smile. i try to keep myself intact and cautious in the words i say.

but im happy because i can assure those who need to cry, laugh, or tell a secret i will be by your side to do some leaning services;p don't fret, be happy and think positive. trust me.

whatta life

2005-06-16T16:15:00.000+08:00

i would like to take this opportunity to write something in this blog.

its been almost 3 weeks since i wrote something here. college life really sank into my bones. tests here, projects there, presentations everywhere. college turned me into a geek. the importance of breaks and study periods are up to my advantages, and the thought of going out on a gimik is just... a thought. i have no time for my real friends anymore. even at home little time is spent for my family. i hardly see my lola and lolo during weekends. i hardly sleep. i hardly eat. my patience got lost in the streams of tension.

but college isn't just the bad and the ugly. it also has the good. blockmates are inseparable. the lrt trips got my tummy aching with laughs. french fries and breakfasts in mcdo, egi kaibigan, animo canteen, and java cafe are the events were you wouldn't want to miss. d.o.m.'s and codenames are the hottest in town. the funny and the weird converge.

im tired. i better rest. my heart had stopped beating for her, and i hope it won't stay cold for long:)

2005-06-15T18:37:00.000+08:00

julie lee. hot. period.

damn

2005-06-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

no more voice for me. damn tonsilitis.

no more squad for me.

oh yeah

2005-06-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

my pinkie got "fingered" yesterday during a basketball game. the lob pass was fast for me. boboness. well i still have to exercise my pinkie for it to un-swell.

oh god i just hope i get thru the first cut. im just a cheer away from my dream...

i want to be in the squad.

psst.

2005-06-01T17:17:00.000+08:00

psst. pumapasok na mga taga-dlsu. hehe.

go mike!

go shaun! (woohoo!)

-random thoughts.
*it's ok to dream, but don't let the dream eat you up until you're gone.
*the apple pie isn't done yet, there are a lot more pieces.
*the skyroof is foggy.
*ratzinger looks sinister-like.
*ever imagined that, while you're taking a bath, you close your eyes to wipe it, then when you open it up again, you're face to face with an upside down head of a bloody girl that's "creepingly" smiling at you, with her eyes wide, blood dripping on the wet floor.
*miss-earth-pilipinas sucked.
*miss california was hot.
*those two girls in that shampoo commercial were hot too.
*my cousin knows tina from palmolive. haha.
*boxing was fun.
*my trainer is gay.
*ey kriz! smile! you deserve the best!

she still doesn't notice

2005-05-31T17:50:00.000+08:00

after the fall, one is obliged to stand up and move on. it isn't the end of the world.

i fell for the wrong woman.

i am still falling for the right one.

weetweet

2005-05-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

i am depressed right now. the feeling that i thought would last for a long long time ended tonight. she's gone.

im all alone.

2005-05-28T08:17:00.000+08:00

my favorite tita came home recently and stayed for a couple of weeks here for a vacation. she was asking me what gift would i like for my graduation. i told her "keys". she asked what the keys are for, and i told her- car

so she said that she'll think about it.....

before she went back africa to work again, she joked about my grad gift. she said that she'll think about having a mini cooper around the complex (our lot has two houses on it. hehe)

i was shocked. if she really means giving me one mini cooper so be it!!

yeah boy

2005-05-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

i saw this tv program where they feature loads of gag stuff, including the one where this guy likes to hang around a new event or something. He looks for the HOTTEST CHICS in sight of the venue. and the weird part is the found CHIC would have to KISS the guy as a closing segment. WEIRD PARE...

weird

2005-05-22T17:17:00.000+08:00

Your Star Wars Name and Title

Your Star Wars Name: Krian Edman

Your Star Wars Title: Sermoc of Oiram

Your Star Wars Name and Title

mexican name

2005-05-22T17:11:00.000+08:00

Your Mexican Name Is...

Don Isidoro

What's your Mexican Name?

haha

2005-05-22T17:10:00.000+08:00

You Are 55% Normal

(Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal...

Other things you do are downright strange

You've got a little of your freak going on

But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

wahaha

2005-05-22T17:06:00.000+08:00

Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.
You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details.

An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.
You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Exploring

You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name.
You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs.

An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles.
You show people how to question their models of the world.

What's Your Thinking Style?

hehe

2005-05-22T16:58:00.000+08:00

hehe.

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Argie is your soulmate.

You truly love Jaypee.

You consider Marc your true friend.

You know that ? is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Mark for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Peej is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Craig is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Mike is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Mike changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think George is shy and nonconfrontational. And that George has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

memories

2005-05-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

it's officially sunday now so this is my last summer day of my high school life. im going to school tomorrow and there are a million reasons why first day in a university would be awesome. yesterday morning (saturday) my mom asked me to fix my high school stuff and remove them from my bedroom kasi the last junior and senior years of books, mags, and newspapers seemed to have accumulated inside my closet. so while bringing all the stuff sa attic (which was hard and hot to do), i stumbled upon some leaflets and books and stuff from my younger years. here are the stuff i've "unearthed":

adam of the road : i don't remember much from this book, but i know the main character's name was adam. (im so pathetic)
lord of the flies : i remember failing this novel in mr. dahilan's class for not finishing the last 4 chapters. crap.
dream chasers : this set of books and excerpts really took me into a deep trance whenever i read the stories. i admit the stories are quite childish pero what can i do? im still a child:)
dad's batman series comics : even though they're old, the drawings and sketches are simply amazing!
hula-hoops : need i say more??
billy joel classic cassettes tapes : reminds me of the none-siesta-sleeping-afternoons
my parent's wedding betamax tape : i haven't watched this yet :( so i don't have any idea on how my dad looked like when he wore an all-white tuxedo.

i guess those were just a few items i'd lke you to know about. the otehrs are either too old, too brown, too stenchy, or too brittle to describe. anyway, snacktime! see ya guys.

by the way, i got myself a new toy! canon ixus 40. say cheese!

if all else fails

2005-05-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

i've been watching dvd movies for like the whole day already. i only leave the couch to refill my slumber mug with any liquid inside the ref or to piss them all off. coach greg cancelled 2 training sessions (friday and saturday) and my sister and i decided not to take the thursday training because the rain poured down hard that day. boredom really kills, and the only reason that im cool because 1. there's no testing day for us and 2. the rain kinda lessened the heat around the house so im not sweaty anymore. 3 summer days are what's left of me before i go on studying at dlsu. my blockmates are cool (some are way to noisy) and the batch is awesome. everyone was getting all hyped up for school and uaap games. i hope the archers defend the title this coming season.
anyway it's already 11:50pm and my barkada/neighbors might arrive any minute now to play soccer once again (god ill be missing these nights). catcha all later;p

school

2005-05-19T05:37:00.000+08:00

school, school, school!

10 messages to 10 different people

2005-05-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

i saw this kind of entry from 3 different people who are my friends and classmates in high school. i figured ill give it a shot. (di po ako gaya-gaya, astig lang siya). 10 messages to 10 different people. vent out your frustrations. it's up to you to figure out who's who.

thank you for being part of my life. although i know things are terminal between us, you still made me believe that there is a possibility that we could go on forever. i love you.
you are my bestfriend for as long as i live. i will never forget you.
you are still my long-time crush. we could've been together, but i know we won't work out. it's nice that you found yourself in him and he found himself in you. i hope you guys go strong.
and if you hurt my long-time crush. i swear that i'll have your nose on my fist.
i like you and your hyped-up attitude. keep it up, but don't drink and drive. it might kill you.
swimming made us closer to each other. i hope that this isn't the only one that keeps us intact.
keep in touch. i might need your "incredible-ness"
god, you're just... sexy.
i promise that i'll be a good boy in my new school. i will make sure that my zipper's closed at all times :)
thank you for all the blessings that you've showered upon me and my family. i love my life.

it's not that long or something, but those i swear came sincerely from me.

froshie

2005-05-17T17:39:00.000+08:00

ima FROSHIE

11:18

2005-05-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

it is now 11:18pm and the drill-machine thing just stopped drilling our street couple of minutes ago, my ears still ring from the banging thing but alas it's quiet. haven't done much after i got home from the morning training. went to my bedroom to fix school stuff just to find out that i slept for 5 hours without a shirt on. i woke up around 4pm and i decided to eat cake. i watched tv and found nothing quite pleasurable to watch. at around 7 i went to my lola's house to eat dinner (fried prok and some pinakbet). and ever since then i started to watch this monitor fill up with words that i just type. (i've been typing for 3 hours of baloney stuff)
the heat is annoying and my sweat's cold (odd). mom already hates me for emptying our ref of water and juice. i can't help it- IT'S TOO DAMN HOT. even the lasalle swimming pool is useless, it feels like a hot tub already. and mind you, 3 showers or more wouldn't suffice the heat we're all experiencing. damn reporter says that this heat wave would last until the first week of june. i hope rain comes in mild forms too. i wouldn't want to chill myself to death either.
so much for my "hot" thoughts. right now, im gonna make myself an ice cold mug of coffee. nice! tC.

gauw??

2005-05-14T10:20:00.000+08:00

im currently feeling exhausted right now. it's 10:30am and we just got home from our morning training in lasalle and i tell you, it's not a nice way to start your saturday morning. as usual coach greg went beserk and started picking on my teammates especially nina and shari. coach was in his get-your-ass-kickin-and-swim-properly kinda mood. everyone's being abused verbally. lucky for me, i sided with the team captain of our team (jan) so coach didn't mind us. haha! i got to pace the way i wanted to and i didn't die not like them (hehe). but even though the interval was hard and every minute i have to take a breather to keep up. anyway jan and i finished faster than expected (daya ko kasi eh). and we watched the others while we wait for them. they were all red in exhaustion and still coach greg curse them. harsh man.
i was hoping to receive an email from my friend hazel today. she lost her cell and now i can't contact her. :(
i'll be going to dlsu next week for some freshman orientation. exciting! hehe.
i gotta go now, im hungry and i wanna pig out. tC everyone.

weird

2005-05-11T09:44:00.000+08:00

ok this entry might sound weird, or whatever you might call it. but i think it has something to do with my recent problems and my sleeping habits. anyway...

> a had a dream last night. went into a party of my old friend (no names*). the house was full of people, i knew every single person in the house. it was happy at first, then i saw a girl whom i met two summers ago (i had a crush on her then). i was surprised when she saw me and greeted me cheerfully. we talked casually blahblah stuff, then she asked if i can take her home na. seeing the party thinning out i agreed. tapos (sorry for the effects**) swoosh fast forward into her house in her bedroom. she was asking me about what would it be like if i courted her... if we went out together and i loved her. siguro mas masaya pa ako at mas masaya ka pa kung nangyari tayo (i remembered her saying that line). i go tmad then, i said that i already am happy with my life and im happy she has her own life. i never intented to court her or anything. then she started crying. i can't comfort her even im already hugging her. then the door opened and his recent boyfriend (who i've known since we were neighbors) and broke up with her in my face. the next thing i did was i punched him hard... *then i woke up* it was raining and cold sweat broke of my forehead (freaky pare...)

could you kindly suggest things on what happened and what should i do? man im really freaking out as of this moment... help!!!

ang init!

2005-05-08T00:13:00.000+08:00

uber init! im desolated!

dlsu comin right up!

2005-05-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

i just realized that im just 2 weeks away from total academic mayhem. it kinda scares me, but in a good way. im bushed. i hope im getting buffed up than before. i miss my barkada. just some random thoughts.

2 weeks

2005-04-30T14:37:00.000+08:00

i just had my most exhausting, breath-taking, spendthrift, sleepless 2 weeks of my entire life. i consumed (approximations only)almost 4 pounds of chocolate, drank 2 liters of tequila, 1 liter of beer, 2 shot size of tabasco sauce, 2 pounds of maki and tuna sashimi, manymany wasabe, salt and soy sauce, 1 pack of prunes, 2 whole size chicken, 3 kilos of meat, 8 glasses of fresh milk, half a gallon of ice cream, 1 pack of cheese, butter, and sandwich spread, 2 loaves of bread, and 1 gallon of water. i swam 24 kilometers of water, wasted 18 hours of travel inside a van, 5 stopovers, 2 flat tires, and 1 engine breakdown. i spent 10 days and 6 nights with 21 different people. i lost almost p5000++ for some useless purposes.
now that im home-bounded, i think it's time for me to rest and just.... rest.
i love my life -- kriz

2005-04-27T13:32:00.000+08:00

okay, this is gonna a rip-off idea from one of my friends' blog. i was reading his latest entry which spoe of slow dances. if it hit him and his friend hard well, it hit me hard too. let's see, when was my last slow dance... it was last year, at my prom (yep, the famous lsgh-no-chairs-prom), i slow danced with my ex. there were no sweaty palms, uncomfortable stances, misplaced foots or confused movements, i just remember me breathing into her hair and looking into those to cute chinky eyes which i loved so much. that was to be my first and last slow dance. i remember her teary eyed during the dace which just left my heart to melt in her arms. it was just as if i was hugging her the whole time. feeling her breath on my chest and smelling her sweetness the whole time, blurring all my other senses and just concentrate on her, my love, my girl, my first slow dance. it was all so different. the feeling of that very moment is someting that i would never exchange for anything else, for in that moment, truly, nothing else mattered, for me, (during that time), there was no world, there were no couples around us, it was only me, her, the dim lights, and that soft, soothing music in which we danced the night away. im actually glad to have had that slow dance experience. (i mean, with someone i loved.) its one thing i never regret. never.

who wants to watch "can this be love with me?". im not kidding.

--mico jau.

fuck it.

2005-04-27T11:30:00.000+08:00

i'm losing my touch.
faster and faster.

life

2005-04-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

i just woke up because my bed's to cramped up (i need a bigger one). it's already 112mn and my whole body patrticularly my shoulders and my arms hurt terribly. it's because with a couple of my discovery batchmates and the pco's we went to baseco tondo to volunteer for the habitat youth build last saturday. we met at starbucks theatre mall and i got there first. after an hour or so they all started coming (imagine i waited inside starbucks for almost an hour?) marc was late (as usual) even though his house was only "3minutes" away. anyway, me, jay-ar, yas, eloi, melai, carlo, bert, dots, and jay rode in miggy's van. i got a nice seat, but as we started to move in edsa, shet pare, ang init! the sun was on my side and i was burning! (yes i know.. but it's still hot eh!) so we went into a convoy-sort-of ride. as we were following peter's carnival, he went into the lane where it said "south expressway". great. we headed the wrong way. so we have to go on and look for either turns to get of that road. miggy was a little worried taht we might end up somewhere, and we did! we saw the new naia terminal 3 which isn't open yet. a few more turns and we got to roxas boulevard. as we turned to the other side a terrible thing happened. we were caught by the mmda! apparently, the man wasn't that who you would call a good officer cause he doesn't have an idea what are violation is! he told us that miggy wasn't wearing a seatbelt. but he waaas! miggy was furious and any second he would blow up and we could be in more deepshit. fortunately the officer didn't give us a ticket, but he pointed something at our rear and guess what, a flat tire! i say: this trip's geting weird...
so flash forward. we got tehre and we started our work. our first assignment was to dig and transfer mounds of earth. it wasn't that hard, but it wasn't also that easy. the sun was getting hotter every hour and the soil was to hard to dig, plus stones slow us down. eventually we dug almost all of it up and the person in charge was quite impressed on our "efficiency" (yeah gotta love that word) so after that he transfered us to another assignment with to put up steel frames for the house. suprisingly the steel frames a.k.a. "walls" weren't heavy at all. the job was done in just a couple of minutes. so we got back to digging, this time more big mounds of earth were there and gigantic stones also. the job now was hard and the sun is at the 12noon mark. it was scorching baby! everyone was pooped out, but we have to carry on. after 6 grueling hours of sun and soil we decided to call it a day. but nooo....
i got a message from hazel that she's still in the hospital because she needed to take some more tests. so i rushed there thinking that she needed me. and she did. we talked about what happened when i was gone and she told me that she's quite okay now (yey. im happy) i stayed there for almost 4 hours din. then i went home and slept.
i love my life.

lesson

2005-04-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

i've learned a lesson tonight.

drunkeness is bad.
feeling horny is evil.
there's a slight chance that i'll remember what i did when i was drunk

i hope i learned my lesson.

day

2005-04-06T14:34:00.000+08:00

wednesday.
i woke up at around 1:30pm with a weird position, so naturally both my back and my neck hurts. i got up and did my morning ritual (which is to do some crunches and stretch). i climb down to see my mom playing her computer game a.k.a. "solitaire". i realized that i was hungry, so i trodged towards the dining table. mom then yelled "the food's not yet cooked, wala ka pang lunch". oh great. so i went towards the sala to watch tv. it was set on the channel where this man likes giving money to weird half-blooded foreigners. crap, so i switched channels to this sports report. nice, now for some real viewing. i saw chelsea quite upset without their manager for their next bout. liverpool sets off to istanbul to fight some watchamaculit team (i don't remember). then here comes tiger woods bragging his glory days way back 99 or so. he's old for crying out loud - and pretty damn rich too. so i left the sala to see if they have the meal for me already. so i ate. then went back to watch "pera o bayong". phenomenal isn't it? how these people strive to put up in the line under the blazing sun just to have their lives improved a million bucks more. at least the people are buying it. it's a good thing how filipinos flare with fighting spirits... wala lang. now my dad's awake and he's trying out this new exercising machine where you twist your waist to and fro (i really don't get it how it'll work). but mom overused it in hers and now her waist is in pain. my sister and i thought of it more as a rotating toy/machine. we played with it until our heads ached bigtime. it has been 3 weeks since i got my diploma, and i still have nothing to do productive this summer. the season has no intentions of slowing down, and in a matter of weeks i'll be jumping trains to reach the morning bell. but still i love my life. and i've got my babay to keep my happy and comfy. thanks be. i love you.

summer 2005

2005-04-05T18:23:00.000+08:00

okay. time to sum up the things i've done so far. it has been 3 weeks since the season started and i've done so many things that i didn't imagine that i did. so here they are:

swam with my original barkada (lunchbuddies) in subic.
saw an ostrich
got close to a full grown tiger
saw a bear
saw an albino cow
swam with more friends
ate dog meat (really)
got drunk and slept
got drunk and puked
got drunk and went crazy
went skinny dipping with my close cousins
went whale hunting (but to no avail)
rock climbing
sand castle making (george's idea)
slept on the grass
caught a milkfish barehanded
went out on a date
watched dvd's for 20 straight hours
danced sensually with friends
made a bonfire with friends
ghost hunting (really)
chic hunting (but to no avail)

hope i could add more to this list as may draws closer and closer. haay.. college, im excited!

2005-04-05T18:00:00.000+08:00

advertising: xanga.com/cityoftheangels

anyway. ill be dead for the months to come.

bye. andres is black.

sad

2005-04-05T14:34:00.000+08:00

isn't it funny how things, no matter how solid they are, can change in just a wink. the things you thought would last forever, can't actually be true. well, im not emotional or something... but this barkada problem we have isn't helping me. wala lang, i've known these guys for almost half a decade and i plan to know them more in another half a decade. c'mon guys, i like being in this gang. let's just settle our differences and respect the decision of others. let's just stay as jumpy and cool as we are. let us all love our lives. just don't forget that we have to watch each other's backs. we're all here if we need help. anyway, im just too confused right now. you know, my own emo problems... hehe. lunchbuddies will stay alive as far as all of us are. take care everyone. i'll see you guys soon. very soon. *wink*

fontana chronicles

2005-04-04T16:18:00.000+08:00

fontana 2005

an all star cast

april 1-3

***

the stuff

swimming

basketball

magic sing

tekken 5

fight night 2

nba live o5

athens

girl gang

equilibrium

jackass

***

the shots

el hombre

london's gin

emperador

***

i love my life

don't worry i will

2005-03-29T16:12:00.000+08:00

don't worry

i will dude

i will

and we'll both be happy

take care dude

-kriz-

some people have all the luck.

2005-03-28T14:21:00.000+08:00

some people have all the luck and im damn happy for them.

i have already experienced two new things after just a week of summer. im both glad and kinda down-trodden (naks, deep.) anyway, i dont at all feel sad for anything that has happened or maybe because some people are luckier than others. fuck it. ill have my time. i never did have my time, but then again, it'll come, no need to fret or to lambast myself in depression. fuck it. i've grown up. finally.

oh well, i'm me and you are you. i wont compare, comparing only makes me, you and everyone else feel bad bout themselves a little. i moved on with my ex-life (or so i call it), or maybe im that last leg of moving on. oh, whatever, my silent battles are finally coming to a conclusion. thank God.

i've been a bad boy. a very bad boy. that's all i got to say.

kali. just the right taste. salty and at the same time "aromatic"

yummy.

"take care of her dude..."

-mico jau

subic escapade 2005

2005-03-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

subic escapades

the best there was.

argie*

mark*

george*

carlo*

kriz*

awesome trip

bottom falls

j.e.s.t. camp

boardwalk

chowking

plus**

BEACH

i love my life:)

beach

2005-03-26T12:22:00.000+08:00

i love you too.

beach escapades 2005

ba-biyee papa coach greg

2005-03-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

graduation na.

maraming pinagdaanan.

maraming sinamahan.

maraming tinawanan.

maraming nahulog.

maraming bumangon.

hindi lang basta-basta ang swimming.

hindi lang basta-basta ang mga practice,

ang mga sabado ng umaga,

ang mga dryland,

ang mga sprints,

ang mga aerobics,

mga warm-ups.

ang mga kick,

ang mga pull.

mga 1000 fly.

mga 1000 back.

mga 1000 free.

mga 1000 breast.

mga 5000 load.

hindi lang basta-basta ang coach.

ang kanyang husay.

kanyang lakas.

kanyang pagiging isang ama sa aming lahat.

hindi lang basta-basta.

ang mga oras na ginugol ko.

sa practice.

2-3 oras sa hapon,

hanggang gabi.

hindi lang basta-basta ang mga kasama mo.

may makulit.

may malakas.

may ma-harot.

may maliksi.

may mabilis.

may mabait.

may santo.

may ungas.

may sabog.

may mayabang.

may mukhang clown.

may mukhang hayop.

may tahimik.

may seksi.

may gwapo.

may akalain mong bading.

may tipong pagka-tibo.

hindi lang basta-basta ang la salle swimming team.

isang team na punong-puno ng buhay.

mga taong may ordinaryong buhay,

ngunit may extraordinaryong lakas at determinasyon.

salamat sa pagiging isang la salle swimmer.

di ko kayo malilimutan.

siyempre, babalik ako. ;p

evaluate this...

2005-03-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

when a guy and a girl met in this ordinary place, but made the odd move... what do you think?

**
guy: i've been wanting to tell you how much your presence makes me happy. could this relationship between us be more than just hi's and hello's?
**
girl: i also like you being around with me. and i appreciate the things you gave me without hesitations. WE'LL SEE
**

what do you think??

chronicles

2005-03-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

i will recount the week and the weekend that was:
**
sunday march 6:
**

princess elaine leynes' 18th birthday.

jau is 18 roses.

kriz is 18 roses.

gello is 18 roses.

andre is 18 roses.

mon is 18 bears.

mico is 18 bears.

marc is 18 bears.

wednesday march 9:

class meeting for the appreciation night.

a 40 minute meeting.

small reunion of four-a.

class night talks.

own emo talks.

we laugh.

lemony snicket's

series of unfortunate events.

emily browning is hot.

friday march 11:

happy birthday jay-ar.

sleepover.

beads for jay-ar.

eurotrip.

kristin kreuk is hot.

michelle trachtenberg is hot.

everyone was horny.

dinner time wasabe meals.

japanese kitaro package.

beef morckon and leche flan.

we laugh.

emo talks.

drinking session.

andre- 6 bottles

mon- 8 bottles

chino- 6 bottles(?)

jeron- 4 bottles

jay-ar- 7 bottles

+ 500 ml red horse

jau- 3 bottles(?)

kriz- 8 bottles

gello- 3 bottles(?)

mico- 2 bottles(?)

tim- 3 bottles(?)

talk about low tolerance.

emo talks upstairs.

tekken 5 tournament.

billiards all night.

slept at 4am.

saturday march 12:

breakfast at 9am.

emo talks.

went home at 11am.

slept until 4pm.

killer headaches.

bathed.

dropped by dish(abs) for a party.

went to joana's birhtday party.

met io and talked emo.

danced with io.

we laugh.

went back to dish at 10pm.

went home at 1am.

bleh.

i love my life.

k k k k

2005-03-11T13:16:00.000+08:00

please bear with this entry fr a buttn n my keybard desnt wrk. bviusly u knw what that letter is.
andres, em... haha. yeah, we did watch lemny snicketts yesterday, yup, it was kinda cnfusing and veru malab but it was nice parin. yeah, me cncurs, emily brwning is ht. gd gad f a wman. ]
anyway, yeah, yeah, 4th yr is cming t an end na and we all are gnna part ways, sad sad, sniff sniff, cry cry.
i pity this blg, sbrang n ne reads this na ata, haha, but its k...
abastillas, andres, alfns, austria, buhangin, camach, caseres, cera, de jya, delmend, ..... blah.... my class... 4A

"rak" n nalang dudes.
kita-kits sa yuchengc hall, sa gkngwei building at sa palma hall.

beautiful soul

2005-03-11T10:39:00.000+08:00

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special

To you I'd be always faithful

I want to be what you always needed

Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

chorus

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I wont let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

*****

You might need time to think it over

But im just fine moving forward

I'll ease your mind

If you give me the chance

I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

chorus

don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

*****

Am I crazy for wanting you

Baby do you think you could want me too

I don't wanna waste your time

Do you see things the way I do

I just wanna know if you feel it too

There is nothing left to hide

chorus
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

dr. paul

2005-03-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

saw dr. paul jaywalk awhile ago.

just after practice.

he ran the street across the flyover to seven-eleven.

he as funny.

anyway, not much of a day.

im learning to breathe again.

i have a new life, a second life.

after all that i thought about,

the feelings that existed,

now thrown away.

i have grown up.

left neverland, went to paris.

i feel happy now.

very happy, i laugh.

but i am all grown up.

i watched a movie with my buddies yesterday.

i wasn't the best, but i had fun.

we laughed.

it was cold.

everyone felt cold.

argie slept the whole movie.

cobi went on observing sonny.

mark talks to mico.

mico makes mark shut up.

i laugh.

lemony snicket's

series of unfortunate events.

it was dull.

it was confusing.

but we laughed.

boy, emily browning is hot.

we laugh.

summer '05

2005-03-07T19:24:00.000+08:00

here we go bois

summer version 2005

we like it hot

we like it wet

we like it tanned

we like it smoked

we like it puffed

we like it tipsy

we like it sunny

we like it

oh yeah we like it

damn dudes, if you really want to go island-hopping

try doing it asap

we're not going anywhere... haha

just beep me ill try my best to go jet ski with you guys...

summer version 2005

starts now

2005-03-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

kriz

lunch buddies

congrats

2005-03-02T20:20:00.000+08:00

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life, yeah

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

-->> congrats guys. we made it. <<--

2005-02-27T17:32:00.000+08:00

i just realized how life can go short.

my friend texted me about someone having a deadly disease.

i prayed.

she died today.

i prayed for her soul.

i know shes happy were she came from.

maybe,

God needs more angels in heaven.

hope to see her soon.

we love you.

kryzell cruz.

2005-02-26T11:39:00.000+08:00

her name's hazel

she's the next best thing to me

Saturday

2005-02-26T10:32:00.000+08:00

nasa school ako ngayon...

reach-out

di natuloy

fudge

whatta day...

2005-02-24T21:41:00.000+08:00

You scored as Joey. You're Joey. A little ditzy perhaps but popular with the opposite sex and always hungry. Hey you'd even be up for combining sex AND food!

Joey

80%

Monica

75%

Ross

65%

Rachel

60%

Phoebe

60%

Chandler

45%

Which Friend are you?
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batch 2005

2005-02-20T15:33:00.000+08:00

8 more days bois, and this will all be over. shux, emotional na 'to boi.

graduation is just a minute away.

hang on dudes.

im gonna miss four-a.

*lunch buddies

*chillers*

*ham and egg sandwich

*countrystyle

*the gym

*the ramp

*the swimming pool

*the aquarium

*the theatre

*the high school building

*vdp

*ssrp

*2:20 dismissal

*intrams

*xmas parties

*sembreaks

*vacations

*free times

*recess

*lunch

*ncaa

*gobstoppers

*runts

*caseres block

*chinard group

*the buhangin group

*skeletor landia

*bashaune group

*the middle group

urrk... my tummy hurts.

im just happy that i got thru all of these.

batch 2005.

friendster

2005-02-17T15:03:00.001+08:00

fcuk. someone deleted my friendster account.

serendipity

2005-02-09T01:33:00.000+08:00

serendipity:
sunday mornin 10am* seeked my phone for possible text messages overnight, there it is, a number. *who could this person be? *hi!* short message, so i replied *hus dis?* after jumping out of bed my phone rang. her name's hazel.

monday mornin 7am* saw my phone with her messages again. she's quite annoying me already, but in a cute way. she asks these questions the way my mother asks them* it's cute though. she bugged me throughout my schoolday (ask craig).

monday night* i bothered to text her an evening quote after my swimming practice. she replied cheerfully. (how obvious). then there's this stupid thing i did. * i invited her to our fair and to watch the concert with me* surprisingly, she agreed. then after a couple of calls and texts that night, i made another stupid (im not prepared to do it) move. *i invited her to watch a movie before we go to the concert* she agreed. wow.

tuesday mornin* i unconciously texted her cheesy stuff(i will not elaborate). she replied cheesy too. i dunno where im goin with this person. i really don't know. i continued texting her until 2pm (where sun broke of suddenly. crap).

for some reason, i feel comfortable with her. i have no idea. well i just have to wait till saturday. i hope will work out jst fine.

fuck

2005-02-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

smile for me
you think everything's okay
but it never was.
one smile shown
you thought everything's so perfect
but it never was
one smile flattered
you thought everything's so nice
but it was only once
one smile cared
you thought everythings' supposed
but it never is
one smile laughed
you thought truth was true
but you never saw it
one smile cried
you thought it was an act
but everything's so deceiving
one smile shone
you thought everything's heaven
for a whil it was.
smile for me.
make me see smiles are not lies.
and lies are never smiles.

bugged

2005-02-06T13:13:00.000+08:00

people just don't know how they could mingle with kids like me.

heck* im no kid.

let's just say that i've grown up and you can't change that.

i've learned things that most people would differentiate as "love".

currently feeling avoided.

you see? my life's not that happy as most people know.

i just laugh.

heck* im no kid.

maybe somewhere sometime things will change.

i don't think time would agree with me right now.

im willing to wait.

i find myself coming back.

2005-02-02T21:57:00.001+08:00

maybe im just kidding myself. maybe im just fooling myself. but no. this time, i feel its the truth.

we jive differently, you and me.

i never found this in her.

in you, i found a hint of perfection.

the fuck bro. love bites.

insecurities

2005-01-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

insecurities* such a lonely word. you never know who's who, what happened, and what got you. tsk* just get over it boi. ill swim as fast as i can just to forget things. *first of all, im not insecured. *im not paranoid. *im no QUITTER. punch me until i bleed, i won't scream. at least i knew you punched me...

survey

2005-01-24T19:27:00.000+08:00

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
-Name: everyone knows it
-Birth date: one damp early morning
-Birth place: makati
-Current Location: qc
-Eye Color: brown
-Hair Color: dark brown
-Righty or Lefty: righty
-Zodiac Sign: scales
LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
-Your heritage: filipino
-Shoes you wear today: school shoes
-3 things i did today: eat, sleep, music
-your fears: graduation, alone, lost
-Your perfect pizza: garlic and cheese
LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY,TOMORROW
-Your most overused phrase on YM: hoy boi.
-Your thoughts first waking up: fuck, another day.
-your best physical feature: hands
-Your bedtime: 1 am
-Your most missed memory: found
LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK
-Pepsi or Coke: coke
-McDonald's or Burger King: mcdo
-Single or group dates: whichever
-Adidas or Nike:nike
-Lipton Tea or Nestea: nestea
-Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-cappuccino or coffee: coffee
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
-Smoke: no
-Take showers: yes
-Have a crush(es): yes
-think you've been in love: thought
-Like(d) high school? yeah
-Want to get married: we'll see
-Get motion sickness: no
-Think you're a health freak: no
-Get along with your parents: at times
-Like thunderstorms: yeah
-Play an instrument: no
LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
-Drank alcohol: no
-Gone on a date: yes
-Gone to the mall: yup
-been on stage: yes
-Eaten an entire box of Oreos: yes
-Eaten sushi: yes
-Gone skating: no
-Had a tan: no
-Dyed your hair: no
LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
-Been trashed or extremely intoxicated? no
-Changed who you were to fit in: no
LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
-Age you hope to be married: 25
-Children: 4
-Describe your dream wedding: sunset. as long as i'm with her, nothing else would matter.
-How do you want to die: sleep.
-What do you want to be when you grow up: writer/lawyer/painter
-What place would you most like to visit: tagaytay. again and again.
LAYER NINE: IN A GAL/GUY
-best eye color?: hazel
-best hair color?: black
-Short or long hair: long
-Height: tall as me
-Best first date location: just a walk. anywhere.
-Articles of clothing: any
LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
-Number of bags i own: 4
-Number of CD's I own: bout 30+
-Number of piercings: none
-Number of tattoos: none
-Number of things in my past that I regret: seeing you how i want to see you.

SWEET FEET

2005-01-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

message from a super happy person*
- just so you know, i got the best time of my life last night. since i got into this, there was no holding back. they were the best people if known ever.. so far. it was so good. i loved the ambiance and god - food. they were so cute and hot. very open, such sweet thoughts pouring into me. hay, hope she knows how i feel. i dunno, im not falling for her - i just appreciate her beauty* bah, practicallity added, they're too far. toll fee is P55, gas will burn, and time will be spent. so there you go, words from a goodboy from a soiree.

chill man.

2005-01-22T14:59:00.000+08:00

a survey answered by a guy...

****

1. give me a nickname and why you picked it.
fatty.. cuz ur fat.. always.. very fat.. always.

2. am i loveable?
only wen i hate u

3. how long have you known me?
since the beginning of time.. no really i did.. 1 year

4. when and how did we first meet?
you were trying to hit on me.. u were kinda scary

5. what was your first impression of me?
wow.. shes hecka fat.

6. do you still think of me that way?
shit shit.. she got even fatter.

7. what do you think my weakness is?
your defense is too low, u gotta level up.

8. what makes me happy?
A BLACK BRAAAAA.. ahhh tooooohhlll juu.

9. what makes me sad?
masturbating penguins.. tsk tsk.. sad.

10. what reminds you of me?
ninjas.

11. if you could give me anything, what would it be?
a boner.

12. how well do you know me?
id tell u, but then id have to kill u

13. when was the last time you saw me?
same as the time u saw me..

14. ever wanted to tell me something but couldnt?
yes.. but i forgot, if u remember, tell me k?

15. describe me in one word.
Hurricane

16. do you think i could kill someone?
i know u killed someone.. murderer.. hurricane

17. do you feel that you can talk to me about anything and i would listen?
no.. i cant think of anything funny for this one.. just no.

18. do we share anything just between the 2 of us? if so.. name some.
we used to share a liver, but you wanted out, so we got the operation. happy now bernice?

19. what can i not stand?
the times wen u sit.

20. are you going to put this on your xanga to see what i have to say about you?
i will.. but its a secret.. sshh.. like ninja.

****

you gotta take it easy dude,don't take a break up too hard. stand up and move on. damn.

how hard is saying goodbye?

2005-01-21T15:35:00.000+08:00

goodbye. yes, i'm now trapped in the emotional cycle of saying goodbye to highschool.

how hard is it to say goodbye to the 4 years of memories, laughter, pain, jubilation and struggles? how hard is it to finally embrace another world, wherin you don't have a clue what's to happen?

actually, it's not so hard, you're just grew up. your old clothes don't fit you anymore. the uniform waking up at 7am and going home at 3 or 4pm doesn't fit your daily lifestyle. your body searches for something new. something off the typical everyday routine of highschool life.

some of us just can't leave the memory highschool life behind us. most likely, we never will. all the friends we made throught the years would always be present in our thoughts and hearts. the countless tears and smiles, the whole bowl of good and bad memories, which they brought, we'll never forget.

i guess, saying goodbye would always be another stepstone to saying welcome.

maybe we all just have to accept the fact highschool life is just over and we're still scared to move on.

no, saying goodbye is not hard. actually, it's saying "thanks for everything highschoool" that's hard. it's when thanking highschool life that we, all of a sudden, remember everything that happened to us. we remember the laughs, tears, friendships, hugs and all that.

we're never far from what we used to do. maybe, yet again, it's not actually goodbye, what we're doing. it's just another thing we're turning our backs on, and at anytime we're free to just look back and smile at what has been, the greatest four years of our lives.

[jau]

stress.

2005-01-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

the fuck bro? - mico quesada

you'd probably say the same after learning that you a ton of soc.sci. homework, an english research and a filipino proj. i repeat, the fuck bro? yes, yes, what the fuck is that? [God, i think i'd sound gay if i said that...]

exams is over and we have a ton of things to do. actually, i still have so much things to fix and organize. blah blah. i need to rest. i need to sleep. fucking hell is happening to me.

yeah, i've learned from you that patience is the best virtue, and now i'm waiting... waiting... waiting....

still waiting...

i need you

2005-01-18T18:40:00.000+08:00

[kriz]
*currently listening: hari ng sablay
*currently feeling: avoided
*stressed about: exams tom (physics/cl)
*paranoia
*current needs: talking to marz(experienced)
*total mind block(formulas)
*still listening: waiting in vain
*intentions: to go and drown myself sa station one
*takipsilim na naman, kahit ilang ulit mo ako saktan basta't ika'y bumalik, ayos na*

2005-01-17T18:41:00.000+08:00

give a chlorine-filled jamaican and a basketball-sweaty guy a hug...

*HUGS* TOTAL!give kriz-and-jau more *HUGS*
Get hugs of your own

too many words. so litte time.

2005-01-17T17:59:00.000+08:00

I guess you've all felt at some point that you''ve got too many things to say and so little time to do so. Sometimes, you got a whole lotta time but the words you want to say arent sufficient enough to fill it. But then you start to think off some words which you believe could summarize a text of three or more pages to just a single or two paragraphs.

Besides, sometimes, it's too energy consuming ti think of all the words you wanna say or write... anyway, i guess you've all faced this dilemma shitness and you feel you just want to give up altogether and call it a night... but...

When you're gonna do it for someone, uhm, nice, you feel you just can't sleep until you've finished it...

I've taken it to the extreme when doing these things, to the point of writing a 20-page palanca for someone, way before... i even made a design for each page and shit, blah. (believe me, 8 hrs straight of writing, will literally freeze your hand to one position..)

There are some points when i feel i could just say anything but still i need to be careful. There are times i feel i have nothing at all to say but i need so much to say something. i am just feeling shit.

I've only written dear and i want to finish this thing tonight. i have two more exams to study.

dear...

love,
mico

three words. so much meaning. emptiness filled.

when nobody, hear's you scream, i'll scream with you...

HUGS

2005-01-17T15:02:00.000+08:00

i dunno.. is it just me or am i just not that visible....
acting far beyond my ordinary self can really be self-inflicting...
having to study economics and english notes can also be inflicting...
im still in pain - injury is still imminent...
staring at myself and what would i be like during the ball gives me pain...
wala lang...
i just wish that i never knew you*

snapper backer

2005-01-15T16:38:00.000+08:00

this is my joint account with jau. snap* back to reality, times like these when you're alone in the house with noone to talk to or play with. tsk* im in no mood to study... still into this woman wherein compatibility= 0% hay, still having probs with my torpeness. high school life is almost over. i've done quite a number of love antics already, all flopped. tsk* im hungry. ill eat merienda later - alone. somestimes i just wish that we're together....

2005-01-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

random poem. i dont usuallly make tagalog poems but blah...

alam mong sinaktan mo ako
alam mong tinapakan mo pagkatao ko
alam mong dinuraan mo ang pag-ibig ko
alam mo ring iniwan mo ako para malamon ng dilim
pero di mo alam ginusto ko ang lahat ng ito
pero di mo alam nakangiti ako habang nangyayari ito
pero di mo alam natatawa lang ako sa lahat ng gahas
pero di mo alam gaganti rin pala ako sa pagdating ng tamang oras
kala mo di ko kaya yun
kala mo hanggang salita lang
kala mo kulang sa gawa
kala mo mahina lang ako
pero di mo naisip na tatapakan din kita
pero di mo naisip na sasaktan din kita
pero di mo naisiip na duduraan din kita
pero di mo naisip iiwanan din kita
akala ko nasa impyerno ka na ngayon
akala ko tagumpay nako
akala ko bubuti na ang mundo ko
akala ko ngingiti ulit ako ng buo
pero mali pala ako
hindi ko lang nakita
pero mali inakala ko
hindi ko lang napansin
pero mali ang intindi ko
hindi ka pala namatay
pero mali ang naramdaman ko
hinihintay mo lang pala ako...

-jau
you knew i loved you, but what you didin't know how much. sorry.

kali

almost

eto na

lantaran na

wrong one

haha

batch 2k5

the day

pambansang shoulder-to-cry-on

whatta life

damn

oh yeah

psst.

she still doesn't notice

weet*weet*

yeah boy

weird

mexican name

haha

wahaha

Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

hehe

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

memories

if all else fails

school

10 messages to 10 different people

froshie

11:18

gauw??

weird

ang init!

dlsu comin right up!

2 weeks

fuck it.

life

lesson

day

summer 2005

sad

fontana chronicles

don't worry i will

some people have all the luck.

subic escapade 2005

beach

ba-biyee papa coach greg

evaluate this...

chronicles

k k k k

beautiful soul

dr. paul

summer '05

kriz

congrats

Saturday

batch 2005

friendster

serendipity

fuck

bugged

i find myself coming back.

insecurities

survey

SWEET FEET

chill man.

how hard is saying goodbye?

stress.

i need you

too many words. so litte time.

HUGS

snapper backer

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